i was going to make this private but i wanted everyone to know and to be jealous of the amazing gift that i have been blessed with...
so there's this girl...
...where do i start...
...she means the world to me and while i say stupid things at times, she has stayed with me, i couldn't possibly love anyone more and while i do dumb things, she has stayed with me
i often times take for granted how truly important she is to me and how big a part of my life she is, i spend countless hours during the day thinking about her and countless nights dreaming about her
....if i could only show her that this love is different...
most couples often get tired of seeing each other, but we see each other nearly everyday
most couples rarley ever actually have long talks, but we do all the time
most couples can't make it through the rough times, but we've made it through dozens
most couples aren't us, but we are us and always will be
i know it may be hard for her to believe certain things at times and i don't blame her a bit because she is simply looking out for herself and i have done a lot of things that would break most people apart but it has only brought us closer together, you can't help who you fall in love with but you can help who you stay in love with and i will love her for the rest of my days and will be waiting on her after that
the only comparison between the two things is that i happened to be in both
this one though is better
she hasn't tried to change me, i feel comfortable being myself with her, she puts up with all my stuff and doesn't back down in an argument which i truly respect, she is always on my mind and always in my heart, i have fought and will fight again to keep her in my life and while that may seem selfish i don't care because i am not letting the girl of my dreams get away and it is selfish because i am going to keep what makes me happy and that is her and no one will ever take her from me or ruin my feelings for her
most people seach for years and years and never find the one but i'm only 18 and not even out of high school and i had a feeling from the moment she came down those steps that she could be the one and i have come to know that she is there have been so many turns in my life that all led me to her, i used to no believe in fate but now that i'm with her i know that it is real because she and i are meant to be together
Emily, i know that you worry at times about certain things but i just want you to know that i am sorry for the things i do to you and that i am also sorry that you are going to have to get used to seeing me because i fully plan and hope that you and i will be together forever because i love you and i will go to the ends of the earth to see that smile of your's but i know that i don't actually have to go anywhere to see that, all i have to do is stay here with you and the love that we have for each other is what makes us smile
it's not the material things, or the number of times we have done this or seen that together...it's that i love you and that i know you love me
and that is all that will ever matter because when we grow old together the memories or you and i simply being with each other and being in love will be the only ones that will count for anything
you make me happy and i love every second we spend together and i hope i make you happy as well because that's the only thing i truly want in this life
i love you with all of my heart Emily
...stay with me...
EMAT
12-16-05 | 
